I see that you are becoming upset at the current state of your ways. You witness happenings around you that you consider negative toward your desires. One might even say that you are pondering your current plight with perplexity. You want your way with all things as you have always wanted them. And you have been duped by the witness of your ancestors. They have handed down to you a testimony of greed, corruption, idolatry, immorality, drunkenness, lies, murder, and a seeking after every form of pleasure. I know you’re worried about being able to continue this legacy. And I know that in your heart you have a deep desire to pass this “freedom” down to your great grand children.
I have bad news for you. What you are witnessing is real. Slowly, your ways (as itemized above) are stripping your future from your hands. You will lose everything you have sought to gain and keep. And you will shed great tears as your desires are taken from you. Yet, not all is lost.
I have good news for you. Jesus stands ready to receive your repentant and contrite heart as you lose your precious sin. He offers you eternally good things to replace the toys you have invented for yourself. You will lose all those toys. But what He offers you will never lose, if you take Him up on His offer.
You are the creation of God. He has given you a body and soul. He provided a place for you to live that you might seek Him and find Him and return worship to His Holy Name. But you chose to desire the work of your own hand. The door is closing on you now. I know you can hear the squeek of massive hinges as the Wind of God slowly closes your world around you. Turn and be healed. Continue to rebel and die.
By His Grace.